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Having given thisthought, I wanted to do athorough review Parts of this book are riveting and details only Elizabeth could know She makes some interesting choices, including not going into much detail as to the sexual abuse, which is totally her right to do One myth the book shoots down is Stockholm syndrome, at least not in the sense that she begins to identify with them She figures her captors out pretty fast and doesn t believe their delusions, but is terrified of them with go Having given thisthought, I wanted to do athorough review Parts of this book are riveting and details only Elizabeth could know She makes some interesting choices, including not going into much detail as to the sexual abuse, which is totally her right to do One myth the book shoots down is Stockholm syndrome, at least not in the sense that she begins to identify with them She figures her captors out pretty fast and doesn t believe their delusions, but is terrified of them with good reason But there are loose threads and inconsistencies One frequently reported story about her rescue included a back story of them going to Florida, her name being Augustine, her captors insisting it is true, and Elizabeth insisting it is true In the book, while she evades the questions at first, the whole Augustine story is not mentioned I thought, Ok, so that didn t happen And then I saw her on the news after the book was published and she referred to the Augustine story there Also, there s some question as to whether she said she was Elizabeth when she was first found or after some time separated from her captors and at the police station I don t know what the process was for this I don t know how much she wrote or if it wasthat the co author interviewed her I also can see that it might have been too difficult for her to read draft after draft If she couldn t read it, somebody should have been reading it and comparing it to her testimony and other comments, and then asking her for clarification Because if it s to be the definitive account, it needs to be consistent It s not that I think she s lying I think, like many survivors of trauma, her memory is fragmented and has never been totally reconstructed Having lived in Utah, I know some of what followed in terms of the legal process Mitchell, especially, used every tactic he could to avoid a trial For years, the questions loomed would there be a trial Would Elizabeth testify Would she have to testify in front of her captors Would Barzee testify against Mitchell And I know that she did testify though Mitchell acted crazy so he didn t have to be present and her testimony was graphic Also, she sat through the rest of the trial, including Mitchell s defense team trying anything they could to minimize his crimes And that must have been hellish for Elizabeth.If I didn t know all that, I would think this is too neat and too happily ever after as many reviewers do And I wish Elizabeth a happy life I just don t think she can get it without counseling I don t care how strong or positive a person is, you can t opt out of PTSD after this type of trauma I understand that she might not want to discuss the lasting effects of trauma, but it would be nice if she would acknowledge that they are there.Jaycee Dugard, for instance, was younger when she was taken and held longer, and she s still amazing resilient and optimistic, but I think she isfrank about how long the road to recovery is And I just dread the message Yes, she has a caveat that counseling is fine for people who choose it, but then she opts out, and it makes my heart break for her and for anyone who might be influencedby her actions than her words We live in a country that does not put enough emphasis on mental health There s still a stigma to any kind of therapy and so people and especially Mormons, who are ridiculously stoic decide they don t need it And sometimes not dealing with the trauma becomes worse than the trauma itself It is what it isa glorified wikipedia entry based off of crime reports After hearing Smart speak on NPR, it s clear she s a very eloquent and insightful person who is able to articulate her feelings about her ordeal in a way that would make you think this book is going to be fantastic but it s very clear the person with whom she wrote it a politician who has written a weird handful of books including one about how miracles have saved the United States including the miraculous creation of It is what it isa glorified wikipedia entry based off of crime reports After hearing Smart speak on NPR, it s clear she s a very eloquent and insightful person who is able to articulate her feelings about her ordeal in a way that would make you think this book is going to be fantastic but it s very clear the person with whom she wrote it a politician who has written a weird handful of books including one about how miracles have saved the United States including the miraculous creation of the constitution I m sure it s on the shelves of every prominent historian sarcasm took the reins and erased all sense of who she is I ve never read any other books about her ordeal and don t knowthan what I read in the news, but I would imagine most books out there are better than her own, which is a bummer because this is, as the title suggests, HER STORY, so it s a shame that so much of the book s material is straight out of crime reports and the news rather than in her own words That being said, she does elaborate on her feelings at certain points in her captivity, but it s really not much and the same language is used repeatedly, making it come off as rather insincere Again, as she sounded incredibly genuine during her NPR interview, it s just too bad that you don t get a great sense of who she is in this book It s generic That s the best way to describe itit s not a bad book, but it s not anything special, either Let me say first, I am a huge Elizabeth Smart fan I ve seen her on various television programs, and seen video clips of her speeches THAT articulate, intelligent, passionate young woman is mostly muted in these pages, and there are many questions that either are not explored at all, or sometimes touched upon and not finished Whether that was by her own choice, or whether she was toned down by her ghostwriter, it makes the book less appealing.The voice was very young throughout Okay, she WA Let me say first, I am a huge Elizabeth Smart fan I ve seen her on various television programs, and seen video clips of her speeches THAT articulate, intelligent, passionate young woman is mostly muted in these pages, and there are many questions that either are not explored at all, or sometimes touched upon and not finished Whether that was by her own choice, or whether she was toned down by her ghostwriter, it makes the book less appealing.The voice was very young throughout Okay, she WAS very young when she was kidnapped, and it makes sense that as she relived the experience, her vocabulary would regress to that of a sheltered young girl But there s an excess of exclamation points that simply became annoying There s an emphasis made about her red silk pajamas, and mention that Mitchell, her kidnapper, was going to do something disgusting with them What We never find out Elizabeth is so physically immature when she is first raped, she has not yet begun menstruating Did she begin menstruating while in captivity, or did the starvation diet she was on prevent her from reaching menarche Did she worry about becoming pregnant with the monster s child, or perhaps contracting an STI Ms Smart has spoken openly andthan once in public about how the abstinence focused sex ed was part of what also held her captive the teaching that a girl who s had sex is like a chewed up piece of gum, and nobody would want THAT made her feel ashamed and worthless I applaud her for speaking out about this in public, and wish it wasthan briefly mentioned and quickly glossed over in this book.Has she been able to enjoy a healthy sex life since she married or are there still hurdles to overcome I didn t need the Penthouse blow by blow intimate details, but just a hint It was hard at first, I was very afraid, but my wonderful husband was so patient and loving we worked it out and now that area of our married life is rich and rewarding Or I was worried I wouldn t be able to respond to my husband, but he was so different in mind, body and soul, that I had no problem Or even that she still has problems that she and her husband are working out together Never explored.Did she ever hate her captors, hope they died, and perhaps feel guilty because of her unChristian thoughts If so, never mentioned Does any member of her family still struggle with guilt over her abduction Did she have any issues with healthy eating once back with her family, or did she ever have impulses to binge or hoard food Not mentioned.There are only three chapters about her post captivity life one on being reunited with her parents, one about the trials of Barzee and Mitchell, and one on her recovery, in general called Gratitude and Faith It s wonderful that she had the support of family, of faith, and the comfort of horseback riding and playing the harp but what did she STRUGGLE with Was there anything about rejoining civilization that surprised her, or was different than she expected While I applaud the work Ms Smart is doing on behalf of abducted children and their recovery, and appreciate that she may need to reclaim her privacy after all she endured, and admire her deeply as a human being, I am not sure what the point is in releasing an autobiography that leaves so many questions unanswered and doesn t dig deeper emotionally Before I read the book, I read a lot of reviews about it Almost all of them were the same Great story, great girl but poorly written book I actually loved the way the book was written while at the same time I can see why it got those reviews It s not really written as a page turner cliff hanger type book, but I don t think that was the purpose of the book I mean it wasn t a fictional story written for fun or to entertain So I think she achieved her purpose in writing I loved that she got Before I read the book, I read a lot of reviews about it Almost all of them were the same Great story, great girl but poorly written book I actually loved the way the book was written while at the same time I can see why it got those reviews It s not really written as a page turner cliff hanger type book, but I don t think that was the purpose of the book I mean it wasn t a fictional story written for fun or to entertain So I think she achieved her purpose in writing I loved that she got to defend her younger sister and her mom I love that she had the chance to tell everyone how evil and selfish Mitchell was I love that she was able to describe her fear and explain how that dictated every decision she made even when she was faced with the chance of escape I m willing to bet that most people reading her book can t comprehend that level of fear I love that she shared what her mom said to her after she was found and I thought that was a fantastic thing to say Living in Utah, her story was on the news constantly and I m she took the chance to tell her story because sometimes the media isn t always kind or truthful.I think Elizabeth is a true hero and I wish I could tell my girls all about her, but obviously, I can t I m amazed at her resilience, her ability to move on and her ability to never let go of her belief in God I m amazed that she could realize how even though her situation was horrible, it could have been worse She s right she doesn t have pictures of her abuser hanging on the wall of her house because it s a family member She didn t get pregnant There was no death involved I worked with a girl who went through similar trauma experiences, probably even worse, and I m amazed that Elizabeth has been able to forget him and build a good life for herself I think it was a lot harder than she really talked about, but I m so glad that she could do it and truly not give him anyof her life I still remember exactly where I was and who told me that she d been found It was pretty shocking The court cases of Barzee and Mitchell were on the news and every time the case was suspended because he would come into the courtroom singing and wouldn t stop, it made me angry I m so glad they didn t determine him to be mentally incompetent It was so obvious he knew exactly what he was doing and I m so glad she got to affirm that in her book I m glad she had the chance to testify against him and stare him down and seal his sentence You go girl Elizabeth Smart s story is riveting, intriguing, heartbreaking and inspiring Smart s faith and hope in the midst of some of the most horrifying trials imaginable can t help but impact the reader for the better, and her resilience as she faced a hopeful future or the ruin of her soul is beautiful.As an addendum to my review above, I read a few reviews after I wrote mine, interested in what others thought I agreed in most part with the commentary on the writing, which is why I only gave the book Elizabeth Smart s story is riveting, intriguing, heartbreaking and inspiring Smart s faith and hope in the midst of some of the most horrifying trials imaginable can t help but impact the reader for the better, and her resilience as she faced a hopeful future or the ruin of her soul is beautiful.As an addendum to my review above, I read a few reviews after I wrote mine, interested in what others thought I agreed in most part with the commentary on the writing, which is why I only gave the book 3 stars At times I found myself wondering if she was purposely trying to sound like a 14 year old, since that was her age at the time of her kidnapping However, I found it interesting that several people didn t like the book because they felt that her strength in her faith, which she felt got her through the ordeal, and the process through which she healed afterward, with the help of her family and her faith but without counseling, were not legitimate and that she was still in denial They also did not like that in the book she emphasized several times that she never had Stockholm Syndrome Regardless of whether you are a person of faith, to discount that for HER faith was a source of strength which allowed her to survive and to heal is not the place of the reader This is Elizabeth Smart s story from Elizabeth Smart s point of view And regardless of whether she actually did come to connect with her captors over the 9 months she was held, her belief that she never truly did feel anythingthan fear and anger toward them has helped her to move forward She is doing great, important and powerful things with her life to protect those who need it so thatyoung people don t find themselves in a situation like hers At the end of the book, she makes it clear that everyone needs to find their own way to healing, and that counseling or medication could be part of that, it just wasn t for her And when people gripe that she didn t includedetails about her abuse and rapethat s just sad Her book is not to dwell on the evil she endured, but to share how she endured it It s funny, some of the things that I remember, many of the details forever burned in my mind It s as if I can still smell the air, hear the mountain leaves rustle above me, feel the fabric of the veil that Brian David Mitchell stretched across my face I can picture every detail of my surroundings the tent, the washbasin, the oppressive dugout full of spiders and mice I can feel the cut of the steel cable wrapped so tightly around my ankle, the scorch of the summer heat lifting off the side It s funny, some of the things that I remember, many of the details forever burned in my mind It s as if I can still smell the air, hear the mountain leaves rustle above me, feel the fabric of the veil that Brian David Mitchell stretched across my face I can picture every detail of my surroundings the tent, the washbasin, the oppressive dugout full of spiders and mice I can feel the cut of the steel cable wrapped so tightly around my ankle, the scorch of the summer heat lifting off the side of the hill, the swaying of the Greyhound bus as we fled to California I remember so many overwhelming feelings and emotions Terror that is utterly indescribable, even to this day Embarrassment and shame so deep, I felt as if my very worth had been tossed upon the ground Despair Starving hunger Fatigue and thirst and a nakedness that bares on to the bones Intruding hands Pain and burning The leering look of his dark eyes A deep longing for my family A heartbreaking yearning to go home Looking back, I realized that at one point, early on the morning of the first day, something had changed inside me After I had been raped and brutalized, there was something new inside my soul There was a burning now inside me, a fierce determination that no matter what I had to do, I was going to live I also discovered something that is harder to imagine, and muchdifficult to explain Sometime during the first couple of days, I realized that I wasn t alone There were others there beside me, unseen but not unfelt Sometimes I could picture them beside me, reaching for my hand And that is on of the reasons I am still alive 4 4.5 stars I m going to be perfectly honest with you this book is going to be HARD for me to review I will tell you right now if you aren t comfortable with the issue of rape skip this one Elizabeth Smart is about a year older than I am I remember when she was taken because it scared me She was a girl about my age and only lived an hour away from me It was very real and very close to home Her kidnapping was everywhere on billboards and in the media I remember it was summer and one night I went around shutting all of the windows because I was freaked out about someone coming through the screens and taking me So to read this book period made me a little apprehensive I will admit that reading it did scare me Elizabeth didn t sugar coat her experience at all She tells about being taken from her home at knife point and dragged up into the mountains There she became the second wife to a psychopath and his psychopath wife Essentially she talks about becoming a slave to Wanda Barzee and a sex toy for Brian David Mitchell for her nine months of captivity She talks about the horror of being cabled to a tree and being able to her rescuers and not being able to call out for help She rehashes each horror and terrifying situation with complete honesty Had the story been only these facts I think I might have abandoned it for simply not being able to handle the sadness of it all BUT Elizabeth Smart also weaves another tale throughout the story It s a story about faith and tender mercies It s a tale about gratitude and forgiveness and some seriously big miracles I felt her spirit radiating through the pages almost as if it was reaching out and saying that even in the darkest times there is light As a person she is truly inspiring Life is a journey for us all We all face trials We all have ups and downs All of us are human But we are also the masters of our fate We are the ones who decide how we are going to react to life Yes, I could have decided to allow myself to be handicapped by what happened to me But I decided very early that I only had one life and that I wasn t going to waste it As of this writing, I am twenty five years old I have been alive for 307 months Nine of those months haven t been very good I have been happy I have been very blessed Who knows how manymonths I have to live But even if I died tomorrow, nine out of 307 seems like pretty good odds I also believe in faith Faith in a loving and kind Heavenly Father who will always care about me Faith that my worth will never be diminished Faith that God knows how I feel and that I can depend on him to help me through it all I believe that God not only suffered for me, but that He will make everything up to me in His own time and His own way That gives me the peace I need to feel like justice will win out in the end When Elizabeth Smart was kidnapped, we had just moved back from New Jersey to Salt Lake I was fascinated and horrified by her abduction, though I wasn t one of the people who pored over every report in the paper I did cry a little when she was found, alive, since I had been convinced that they would only find a body, as the days and months passed But I ve been evenfascinated by her life since then She has emerged from a harrowing ordeal as a gracious, gentle, intelligent woman She s u When Elizabeth Smart was kidnapped, we had just moved back from New Jersey to Salt Lake I was fascinated and horrified by her abduction, though I wasn t one of the people who pored over every report in the paper I did cry a little when she was found, alive, since I had been convinced that they would only find a body, as the days and months passed But I ve been evenfascinated by her life since then She has emerged from a harrowing ordeal as a gracious, gentle, intelligent woman She s used her fame to help others She s graduated from college, served an LDS mission, and married in the temple, all goals that she set long before Brian David Mitchell kidnapped and abused her This book is amazing Without being graphic or sensational, but rather with a sort of matter of fact clarity, she recounts her captivity and what she endured, which included being force fed drugs and alcohol, living outside in extreme weather, and nearly dying of starvation But through it all she speaks of her great faith, her will to survive, and her love for her family that sustained her This is a truly inspiring book, and certainly an interesting one for anyone who knew about her abduction and rescue This book took me one day to finish It is so good and heartbreaking Her story is very tragic For the first time, ten years after her abduction from her Salt Lake City bedroom, Elizabeth Smart reveals how she survived and the secret to forging a new life in the wake of a brutal crime.On June 5, 2002, fourteen year old Elizabeth Smart, the daughter of a close knit Mormon family, was taken from her home in the middle of the night by religious fanatic, Brian David Mitchell and his wife, Wanda B This book took me one day to finish It is so good and heartbreaking Her story is very tragic For the first time, ten years after her abduction from her Salt Lake City bedroom, Elizabeth Smart reveals how she survived and the secret to forging a new life in the wake of a brutal crime.On June 5, 2002, fourteen year old Elizabeth Smart, the daughter of a close knit Mormon family, was taken from her home in the middle of the night by religious fanatic, Brian David Mitchell and his wife, Wanda Barzee She was kept chained, dressed in disguise, repeatedly raped, and told she and her family would be killed if she tried to escape After her rescue on March 12, 2003, she rejoined her family and worked to pick up the pieces of her life.Now for the first time, in her memoir, MY STORY, she tells of the constant fear she endured every hour, her courageous determination to maintain hope, and how she devised a plan to manipulate her captors and convinced them to return to Utah, where she was rescued minutes after arriving Smart explains how her faith helped her stay sane in the midst of a nightmare and how she found the strength to confront her captors at their trial and see that justice was served.In the nine years after her rescue, Smart transformed from victim to advocate, traveling the country and working to educate, inspire and foster change She has created a foundation to help prevent crimes against children and is a frequent public speaker In 2012, she married Matthew Gilmour, whom she met doing mission work in Paris for her church, in a fairy tale wedding that made the cover of People magazine I just can t bring myself to give this a star rating I ve no problem with Elizabeth or her family profiting from the morbid public interest in her sad tale Writing a book from Elizabeth s point of view seemed a logical conclusion, and I m frankly surprised it didn t come sooner However, it s not terribly well written a shortcoming that should be blamed entirely on the ghost writer and not Elizabeth herself There s a lot in this book that made me feel as though I was both intruding into El I just can t bring myself to give this a star rating I ve no problem with Elizabeth or her family profiting from the morbid public interest in her sad tale Writing a book from Elizabeth s point of view seemed a logical conclusion, and I m frankly surprised it didn t come sooner However, it s not terribly well written a shortcoming that should be blamed entirely on the ghost writer and not Elizabeth herself There s a lot in this book that made me feel as though I was both intruding into Elizabeth s privacy and participating in her unhealthy to me coping For instance, Elizabeth s belief in miracles stretch the limits of believability and instead seem as though you re reading the account of a child desperate to feel as though she was not alone something that makes me incredibly sad and uncomfortable Some of the details she reports directly contradict reports in the media AND her parents book, Bringing Elizabeth home, particularly the events near the end of her imprisonment and whether or not she had Stockholm syndrome Oh, Stockholm syndrome A very large part of the book is dedicated to trying to prove to the reader she did not have Stockholm syndrome, that she would never betray herself or her family by developing such a commonplace psychological condition, etc She proudly states she had no therapy and I ll grant that she says some people may need it , further causing my discomfort with the book.Elizabeth is undoubtedly a very strong woman who does much good in the world However, this book reads like somebody who has a highly specific version of her story held in her mind particularly that she did NOT have Stockholm syndrome and feels that she needs others to believe it There s very little of the book dedicated to her healing and recovery process, simply because it seems she didn t really go through much of one by her own admission Ultimately, I feel that the story is hers to tell however she chooses and that she should be applauded for every single thing she has done since those brutal nine months She has rebuilt her life I just don t feel comfortable holding this up as a book other survivors of trauma ought to read because it is a pretty religiously based book if you aren t Mormon, don t have an entire family structure dedicated to helping you suppress memories, and aren t well off enough to afford access to horses, I don t think her story has much to offer other survivors of unimaginable trauma I just have a lot of conflicted feelings about this book `EBOOK ☟ My Story ☠ For the first time, ten years after her abduction from her Salt Lake City bedroom, Elizabeth Smart reveals how she survived and the secret to forging a new life in the wake of a brutal crimeOn June fourteen year old Elizabeth Smart, the daughter of a close knit Mormon family, was taken from her home in the middle of the night by religious fanatic, Brian David Mitchell and his wife, Wanda Barzee She was kept chained, dressed in disguise, repeatedly raped, and told she and her family would be killed if she tried to escape After her rescue on March she rejoined her family and worked to pick up the pieces of her lifeNow for the first time, in her memoir, MY STORY, she tells of the constant fear she endured every hour, her courageous determination to maintain hope, and how she devised a plan to manipulate her captors and convinced them to return to Utah, where she was rescued minutes after arriving Smart explains how her faith helped her stay sane in the midst of a nightmare and how she found the strength to confront her captors at their trial and see that justice was servedIn the nine years after her rescue, Smart transformed from victim to advocate, traveling the country and working to educate, inspire and foster change She has created a foundation to help prevent crimes against children and is a frequent public speaker In , she married Matthew Gilmour, whom she met doing mission work in Paris for her church, in a fairy tale wedding that made the cover of People magazine