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*Read Book á Madness: A Bipolar Life Ö An astonishing dispatch from inside the belly of bipolar disorder, reflecting major new insightsWhen Marya Hornbacher published her first book, Wasted A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia, she did not yet have the piece of shattering knowledge that would finally make sense of the chaos of her life At age twenty four, Hornbacher was diagnosed with Type I rapid cycle bipolar, the most severe form of bipolar disorderIn Madness, in her trademark wry and utterly self revealing voice, Hornbacher tells her new story Through scenes of astonishing visceral and emotional power, she takes us inside her own desperate attempts to counteract violently careening mood swings by self starvation, substance abuse, numbing sex, and self mutilation How Hornbacher fights her way up from a madness that all but destroys her, and what it is like to live in a difficult and sometimes beautiful life and marriage where bipolar always beckons is at the center of this brave and heart stopping memoirMadness delivers the revelation that Hornbacher is not alone millions of people in America today are struggling with a variety of disorders that may disguise their bipolar disease And Hornbacher s fiercely self aware portrait of her own bipolar as early as age four will powerfully change, too, the current debate on whether bipolar in children actually existsTen years after Kay Redfield Jamison s An Unquiet Mind, this storm of a memoir will revolutionize our understanding of bipolar disorder By her early 20s Marya Hornbacher had written and published a memoir about living with and beginning to recover from anorexia and bulimia That book, Wasted A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia became an international bestseller Hornbacher was subsequently diagnosed with bipolar I disorder, something which had likely gone undetected since childhood Undetected in the sense that it was undiagnosed, but as Madness shows Hornbacher has been living with mental illness from a young age.Hornbacher doesn By her early 20s Marya Hornbacher had written and published a memoir about living with and beginning to recover from anorexia and bulimia That book, Wasted A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia became an international bestseller Hornbacher was subsequently diagnosed with bipolar I disorder, something which had likely gone undetected since childhood Undetected in the sense that it was undiagnosed, but as Madness shows Hornbacher has been living with mental illness from a young age.Hornbacher doesn t shy away from the realities of manic depression, particularly when it is rapid cycling and features psychosis Hornbacher s Wasted is probably the most perceptive book ever written on eating disorders, so I went ahead and bought the hardback of this sequel in which she describes her diagnosis and subsequent grappling with bi polar depression Unfortunately, while the book might be a photo finish accurate portrayal of what it s like to be bi polar, the problem with the book is that it s a photo finish accurate portrayal of what it s like to be bi polar The first 50 pages are a series of vignettes of Hornbacher s Wasted is probably the most perceptive book ever written on eating disorders, so I went ahead and bought the hardback of this sequel in which she describes her diagnosis and subsequent grappling with bi polar depression Unfortunately, while the book might be a photo finish accurate portrayal of what it s like to be bi polar, the problem with the book is that it s a photo finish accurate portrayal of what it s like to be bi polar The first 50 pages are a series of vignettes of Hornbacher swinging from manic grandiosity to despair, with plenty of binging and purging, drug use, compulsive sexual behavior, and alcoholism thrown in for good measure The remaining pages chronicle a series of hospitalizations and it sounds like her adult life has been pretty much one round of hospitalization after another and the series of poor choices Hornbacher unfailingly made to keep from ever stabilizing Drinking copious amounts, refusing sleep and food for days at a time, drug use, switching doctors, deciding to go off medicines if there was anything she could do to interfere with her recovery, she did it The result is that while she writes the book KNOWING that she made poor choices, she doesn t appear to have any long view on why she kept doing these things The last four pages are a deeply unconvincing well, now I stay sober and I do a lot of yoga, so I m doing better now But it s also clear that the damage of years of treatment non compliance has already been done Unlike Wasted, this book has no insights into how mental illness might fit into the larger culture, nor any insights into how common narratives of the disease get it wrong Instead, it just provides a grim view of one mother fucker of a mental illness i have to say, she totally won me over it was amazing because i wasn t sure if Marya Hornbacher could do it, but she redeemed herself by beinghonest and upfront and REAL about her illness and willingness to get better than she was in Wasted, andthan Elizabeth Wurtzel ever, ever did this is best example of mania i have ever read it is so true to life, and so true to form it s really impressive how much insight she has into her illness when she lacked so much before but it s l i have to say, she totally won me over it was amazing because i wasn t sure if Marya Hornbacher could do it, but she redeemed herself by beinghonest and upfront and REAL about her illness and willingness to get better than she was in Wasted, andthan Elizabeth Wurtzel ever, ever did this is best example of mania i have ever read it is so true to life, and so true to form it s really impressive how much insight she has into her illness when she lacked so much before but it s like the eating disorder was just a cover for the bipolarity, and once she got the true diagnosis, she was able to kind of figure things out but she doesn t take the easy way out she admits the mistakes she makes, she says that she does things she doesn t understand herself it s so true when you are manic depressed, there often isn t any rationality to your behavior or at least any that you can see at the time it s amazing how honest she is with herself she admits her mistakes, she knows when she is screwed up she doesn t blame the fact that she doesn t listen to her doctors on anyone other than herself i ll probably write aglowing review later, but this really is one of the most incredible books that actually grasps mental illness and what it s like without blaming anyone at all and unlike the end of Wasted, i really believe that she wants to get better, and that she knows what she is facing i love her for this book, i really do Hornbacher s stories terrify me And ashamedly, the entire time that I was reading Madness , all I could think about was how glad I was that I am not that crazy It also proves the fact that human beings can be very resilient, tenacious fuckers Having also read Wasted , I can t believe this woman is still alive She s like an extreme condition crash test dummy I ve struggled with rather severe anxiety for years, with derealisation, panic attacks and so on and each time I ve had these episo Hornbacher s stories terrify me And ashamedly, the entire time that I was reading Madness , all I could think about was how glad I was that I am not that crazy It also proves the fact that human beings can be very resilient, tenacious fuckers Having also read Wasted , I can t believe this woman is still alive She s like an extreme condition crash test dummy I ve struggled with rather severe anxiety for years, with derealisation, panic attacks and so on and each time I ve had these episodes if it went on for too long, say TWO days I wanted to kill myself I ve had the odd bout of depression, with a handful of suicidal days And I m terrified of that reoccuring And I only get GENERIC depression Hornbacher makes me feel like a pansy To think that there are people out there that have it so much tougher, is mind boggling to me Where do they pull the strength from Mental illness is scary This book scared me The cover on my edition was pretty, it s blue with cute pictures and soothed me into a state of false calm everytime I had to close it to get a breather Which I had to do often The blue cover with pretty pictures was the only pleasant thing about this book Hornbacher is relentless, self destructive and frustrating Every time I have ever gotten mentally unstable, I ve latched onto whatever help I can get I obey orders, I m frightened of insanity To read of someone disobeying, of spitting in their own sanity s face, so to speak is shocking to me I love Hornbacher s books I would have given this a 4, but I gave Wasted a 4 and I thought that Wasted was a lot better I found Wastedinteresting,hard hitting, better written Madness , to me, felt like it was a little lost, a little bit vacant but it still takes you on quite the rollercoaster Reading this was like stepping into a whole different world When I stop reading, I look around at my life and it looks like it s painted in pastels I might as well be wearing disposable adult diapers and playing bingo in a nursing home I am HALF ASLEEP compared to this woman, fuck, I m comatose really Hornbacher s world is technicolour And fast And spinning And painful And loud And fucking demented I need a Valium to soothe my frazzled nerves from reading this book