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Sorry to have to say this, but Everything Happens for a Reason is a mess This short book is a memoir of Kate Bowler s Stage IV colon cancer and how her diagnosis flies in the face of the prosperity gospel the notion espoused by some Christians that as long as you believe in God and think positively, good things will happen for you, and therefore if something bad happens it s kind of your own fault Was Kate Bowler previously a devotee of the prosperity gospel, or was she raised in that tradit Sorry to have to say this, but Everything Happens for a Reason is a mess This short book is a memoir of Kate Bowler s Stage IV colon cancer and how her diagnosis flies in the face of the prosperity gospel the notion espoused by some Christians that as long as you believe in God and think positively, good things will happen for you, and therefore if something bad happens it s kind of your own fault Was Kate Bowler previously a devotee of the prosperity gospel, or was she raised in that tradition Why, no She was raised in the Mennonite tradition She s a professor at Duke divinity school and did her dissertation on the prosperity gospel, so she knows a lot about it, but has no actual personal lived experience with it at all Analyzing a particular area of Christian belief in relation to her cancer might work for a short essay, but it doesn t work for a book length memoir Memoirs are supposed to be personal Bowler discusses the prosperity gospel for so many pages, and after a while it just seemed pointless She doesn t believe in the prosperity gospel herself, so what does it really have to do with anything The book otherwise just meanders It touches on her Mennonite background and other religious traditions, talks quite a bit about how hot her husband allegedly is, goes over her past fertility issues and other health problems, mentions a high profile article she wrote on her cancer diagnosis and the prosperity gospel and the various responses it received aha When I got to this part it all made sense Bowler had written an article for the New York Times, it got a massive response, she got a book deal, and then had to stre e e e tch it out to book length She s done this, but not successfully.As other reviewers have mentioned, this is really mucha book about God and Christianity than it is a book about Bowler s cancer diagnosis Given that she is a divinity professor, maybe I should have expected that But the book started out with a harrowing section about her unexpected diagnosis and then went off in a hundred other directions, leaving me wondering how her surgery went and what her prognosis and treatment plan were She doesn t come back to it until several chapters later, and even then she doesn t provide a lot of direct details eventually the reader can suss everything out, but it takes longer than it really should for a book this short.In the past year or two I ve read several memoirs about people s trials and tribulations, and many of them have left me underwhelmed When I post my middling to negative reviews on Goodreads, I usually get some insults from people who think not liking a memoir is tantamount to going to the author s house and criticizing her life choices to her face I m not going to sugarcoat it I think this is a simpleminded attitude An author and her book are not exactly the same Writing a book requires making decisions about what to put in, what to leave out, what tone to take, how to organize everything, and on and on All of that affects the reading experience, and if it isn t done well, I m not going to appreciate the book I think what happened to Kate Bowler is awful and I wish her the best, but I also wish I hadn t bothered to read this.When I think back to memoirs I ve really liked, such as The Liars Club and Another Bullshit Night in Suck City, I m reminded that it s just not enough to have an interesting life A memoirist also has to be serious about writing a really good book I don t see a lot of that happening in the current crop of memoirs, and in the future I m going to be muchcareful about which new ones I read I m sure Everything Happens for a Reason will help some people, but purely as a reading experience it didn t hit any kind of mark for me I started this book in the waiting room at the dentist, which was a mistake, in part because I m always about to cry at the dentist and also because the dentist does not deserve to witness my deep wonder So I did what any reasonable person should and finished this book at home in bed on a slow morning And gosh I m glad my roommates weren t home because I oscillated between an ugly cry and a full belly laugh in the course of like three pages Kate s voice is incisive and thoughtful and honest I started this book in the waiting room at the dentist, which was a mistake, in part because I m always about to cry at the dentist and also because the dentist does not deserve to witness my deep wonder So I did what any reasonable person should and finished this book at home in bed on a slow morning And gosh I m glad my roommates weren t home because I oscillated between an ugly cry and a full belly laugh in the course of like three pages Kate s voice is incisive and thoughtful and honest and also breaks your heart open I know that s not an adjective, but I m so impressed I ve given up on parallelism Also, a good chunk of this book is dedicated to her community of Canadian Mennonites, who are consistently the best people I ve ever met, so between that and a shout out to Mindy Lahiri, we are clearly kindred This isn t about me, though, so please just read the damn thing This was the 2018 title I was most looking forward to reading, and it didn t disappoint I devoured it in one day It combines two of my niche interests medical especially cancer memoirs, and the prosperity gospel, a dubious theology I grew up with in the Pentecostal church my parents still attend in America Indeed, Bowler s previous book is a history of the prosperity gospel in America Though she grew up surrounded by the Canadian Mennonite tradition, as she made progress towards becoming This was the 2018 title I was most looking forward to reading, and it didn t disappoint I devoured it in one day It combines two of my niche interests medical especially cancer memoirs, and the prosperity gospel, a dubious theology I grew up with in the Pentecostal church my parents still attend in America Indeed, Bowler s previous book is a history of the prosperity gospel in America Though she grew up surrounded by the Canadian Mennonite tradition, as she made progress towards becoming an assistant professor at Duke Divinity School she was fascinated by prosperity theology the idea that you can claim God s blessings, financial and otherwise, as a reward for righteous behavior and generous giving to the church.If she d ever been tempted to set store by this notion, that certainty was permanently fractured when she was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer in her mid thirties In a spiritual world in which healing is a divine right, illness is a symptom of unconfessed sin, that way of thinking went Having incurable cancer forced her to acknowledge that nothing is actually that simple that there is no direct correlation between the quality of your faith and the outcomes you experience Control is a drug and we are all hooked, she realized, when really life, with all its beauty and awfulness, is down to luck Bowler writes tenderly about suffering and surrender, and about living in the moment with her husband and son while being uncertain of the future she faces I especially liked the appendix entitled Absolutely Never Say This to People Experiencing Terrible Times followed by some alternative lines to try.Bowler s writing reminds me of Anne Lamott s and Nina Riggs s, and I highly recommend her book to memoir fans Everything Happens for a Reason And Other Lies I ve Lovedis a propulsive memoir about a young woman s sudden, dramatic diagnosis of stage four cancer after months, possibly years the timeline is fuzzy , of inexplicable symptoms and innumerable, pointless appointments with medical specialists Some might frame a personal narrative like Bowler s in terms of the uncertainty of medical science, reflecting on the imperfection and limitations of humans as diagnosticians and care givers HindsigEverything Happens for a Reason And Other Lies I ve Lovedis a propulsive memoir about a young woman s sudden, dramatic diagnosis of stage four cancer after months, possibly years the timeline is fuzzy , of inexplicable symptoms and innumerable, pointless appointments with medical specialists Some might frame a personal narrative like Bowler s in terms of the uncertainty of medical science, reflecting on the imperfection and limitations of humans as diagnosticians and care givers Hindsight, of course, is 20 20, but it is evident that the many specialists Bowler saw were guilty of the biases and egregious errors in thinking that a number of medical writers, most notably oncologist Jerome Groopman in hisHow Doctors ThinkandYour Medical Mind, have in recent years brought to public attention Some of the clinicians Bowler encountered were also guilty of appalling insensitivity A junior doctor was sent in the early morning hours to inform her about her survival odds she had a 30 to 50 % chance of surviving two years, she was bluntly told A physician s assistant who checked her sutures after her surgery asked her how she was doing, then callously announced the sooner you get used to the idea of dying the better While Bowler tells a story that will be familiar to those who have personally lived with their own serious illness or the illness of someone close to them, as well as those who have read other memoirs about the subject, the author s angle a religious and academic one is rather unusual At the time she first experienced her inexplicable symptoms, Bowler was working on her dissertation on the prosperity gospel , the brand of Christianity famously exemplified by the likes of Jim and Tammy Faye Bakker, Joel Osteen, and Kenneth Copeland among innumerable other televangelists , charismatics and religious shysters out there This gospel is premised on the idea that if one only believes enough, one is entitled to all of God s bounty This, importantly, is not limited to spiritual gifts it also includes material wealth, such as money and cars, and worldly success in general It s basically, the evangelical take on the American Dream The notion that the blessings will flow if one only works hard enough to believe is immensely attractive to those struggling with chronic or catastrophic illnesses, broken families, or troubled teenaged offspring Often exhausted after having tried all the conventional fixes to life s big problems, the desperate become as little children and surrender to magical thinking.In essence the prosperity gospel isn t that far removed from another homegrown American religion Christian Science, which is predicated on the idea that right thought leads to perfect health Illness, therefore, is evidence of flaws in the believer While proponents of the prosperity gospel may not eschew modern medicine with its advanced diagnostics and techno surgical, chemical, and experimental fixes, they are like the followers of Mary Baker Eddy in that they regard sickness as an indication of failure Perhaps the believer hasn t acknowledged all his sins and is preventing God from bestowing His bounty.Bowler excels at communicating the visceral, chaotic feelings of a person faced with a sudden dire diagnosis the fear, the panic, the pleading and bargaining, the anger at the injustice of it all she is preparing for death while everyone else is on Instagram , the grief the intense sorrow at the prospect of being wrenched from her young son and her husband, Toban, whom she s loved since their adolescence in Manitoba She even writes of being aggrieved at slights she won t be present to argue against, projecting a future without herself in it, imagining some well meaning but deluded soul accosting her husband with the old pearl of wisdom that God must have wanted another angel Bowler s narrative reveals all this but also indicates that the author hasn t been an entirely detached observer of and commentator on the prosperity gospel she s absorbed at least some of its tenets She writes It is one thing to abandon vices and false starts and broken relationships.I have tried to scrounge around in my life for things to improve, things to repent of, things to give God to say, There I gave it all But it is something else entirely to surrender my familyAt the time of her sudden late diagnosis and surgery, Bowler was a lecturer at Duke University s Divinity School in Durham, North Carolina She not only had an abundance of friends to rally around her, but she also had a bevy of pastors, pastors in training, and general do gooders praying for her However, all the prayers in the world could do little to assuage the threat of being cut down in her prime Bowler s memoir is an interesting and quick read, though the author s telling is understandably occasionally scrambled and frustrating The disorganized execution creates a sense of emotional immediacy, but sometimes causes confusion Events are not presented in clear, chronological order and the language can sometimes be fuzzy For example, we are told that some years before the cancer diagnosis, when Bowler was hospitalized, having agreed to some kind of surgery , she and her husband were stunned to learn seemingly mere hours before the procedure again, the chronology is unclear that she is pregnant after years of struggling with infertility One assumes the surgery was intended to address the mysterious loss of motor function in Bowler s arms Whatever the case, the operation was off, and the couple returned home to dither and fuss for a bit But it had begun, Bowler writes What it was is not clear The pregnancy The ordeal By this point, she had already been having symptoms for some time She continues I felt something strange and ran to the bathroom I started to scream for Toban What was this strange something She doesn t say In the shower I could not look down I was nothing but blood and water Is this meant literally, or is it a presentiment Again, it is not clear.A significant part of Bowler s memoir is dedicated to describing the mail, both snail and electronic, she received after an essay of hers was published in the New York Times It seems all correspondence whether from Christians, atheists, Buddhists, or fellow cancer patients was intended to provide Bowler with the writers understanding of the reason why she had been stricken Some letters were confessional outpourings At the end of her book, Bowler provides appendices about what to say and not to say to someone dealing with catastrophic illness something that many readers may find useful.At the time of writing, Bowler was still engaged in clinical trials for which she had to fly to Atlanta on a weekly basis A scan conducted every two months indicated whether she was eligible to continue for two monthsAfter half a dozen or so rounds, there were signs that Bowler s body was having a hard time coping with the toxic chemical loads Having learned that she was among the three percent with the magic cancer that could be explained by a complicated gene repair disorder that might respond to experimental therapies, there was, of course, no guarantee that the treatment would actually be magical or the response long lasting.Many of us go through life events that utterly transform us, about which we can say later there is distinct before and after For some, these events occur sooner than later The world orprecisely, the way we see it seems completely changed The carpet has been pulled out from under us, or perhaps the obscuring veil of illusion has droppedEverything Happens For A Reasonrepresents its author s effort to make sense of the ultimate seismic shift in her life One of the things she learns as she is stuck in the eternal present of cancer , trying to walk the fine line between total passivity and supercharged heroic effort , is that nothing human or divine will map out this life, this life that has beenpainful than I had imagined More beautiful than I had imagined Thank you to Net Galley and Allison Schuster at Penguin Random House for providing me with a digital copy of this memoir ( Free Kindle ) ♧ Everything Happens for a Reason: And Other Lies I've Loved ♶ A divinity professor and young mother with a Stage IV cancer diagnosis explores the pain and joy of living without certaintyThirty five year old Kate Bowler was a professor at the school of divinity at Duke, and had finally had a baby with her childhood sweetheart after years of trying, when she began to feel jabbing pains in her stomach She lost thirty pounds, chugged antacid, and visited doctors for three months before she was finally diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancerAs she navigates the aftermath of her diagnosis, Kate pulls the reader deeply into her life, which is populated with a colorful, often hilarious collection of friends, pastors, parents, and doctors, and shares her laser sharp reflections on faith, friendship, love, and death She wonders why suffering makes her feel like a loser and explores the burden of positivity Trying to relish the time she still has with her son and husband, she realizes she must change her habit of skipping to the end and planning the next move A historian of the American prosperity gospel the creed of the mega churches that promises believers a cure for tragedy, if they just want it badly enough Bowler finds that, in the wake of her diagnosis, she craves these same outrageous certainties She wants to know why it s so hard to surrender control over that which you have no control She contends with the terrifying fact that, even for her husband and child, she is not the lynchpin of existence, and that even without her, life will go onOn the page, Kate Bowler is warm, witty, and ruthless, and, like Paul Kalanithi, one of the talented, courageous few who can articulate the grief she feels as she contemplates her own mortality God, I am walking to the edge of a cliff Build me a bridge I need to get to the other side Oh man I don t know how to rate this just yet Everything Happens for a Reason is Kate Bowlers memoirs of her experiences after being diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer As a divinity professor, she has a difficult time integrating this personal tragedy into the narrative of her life How can a benevolent God exist, in the face of all the injustice and suffering in the world This book describes,God, I am walking to the edge of a cliff Build me a bridge I need to get to the other side Oh man I don t know how to rate this just yet Everything Happens for a Reason is Kate Bowlers memoirs of her experiences after being diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer As a divinity professor, she has a difficult time integrating this personal tragedy into the narrative of her life How can a benevolent God exist, in the face of all the injustice and suffering in the world This book describes, in a very honest way, her search for the answer to that question, as well as her experiences with doctors, relatives and her own thoughts whilst on her sickbed.Having been on the emotional rollercoaster of this disease myselfthan once myself as well as close familymembers , I know the absolute chaos that it entails The cycle of DABDA is a myth, and the reality lookslike a spiders web circling and crisscrossing without any rhyme of reason Funnily enough, most cancer memoirs I ve read do carry one of these dominant emotional states over them likely the emotional state the author was in at the time of writing For this books, that emotion seemed to be anger There s a lot of anger in here anger at God, anger at medical professionals, anger at her own faith and even anger at relatives who say dumb things And I get it All of what Kate Bowler says is true and honest All of what she says has probably at some point been felt by someone going through a similar situation There is also a lot of backtracking, however, where it seems like she is going to make a conclusive sometimes controversial statement, but doesn t quite go through with it in the end To me, this book feels like a women who, herself, is still trying to make sense of everything along the way I know that journey, as most of us do, and honestly at this point in life I couldn t write anything other than that The result, however, is the aforementioned backtracking and the lack of a final take home message, that will bother some readers It is an honest and heartfelt biography by a brave woman that will resonate with me for a while to come Is it the most complete, rounded and well written work in its genre, though For me no It really depends on what you are looking for, and in case you are going through went through something similar the state of mind you re in I m happy I read it, although I will refrain from putting a star rating on it for now I feel like I get to be honest here I don t have to feel bad for this woman although, I do , but I do feel like I can judge in anon biased view given my own Stage IV diagnosis Every cancer memoir or article that is published is going to influence people s view about our illness, mortality, etc Here s the thing none of us can know what s to come and religion won t tell us the truth To me, she explored and over shared her religion and didn t talk much about anything else This was m I feel like I get to be honest here I don t have to feel bad for this woman although, I do , but I do feel like I can judge in anon biased view given my own Stage IV diagnosis Every cancer memoir or article that is published is going to influence people s view about our illness, mortality, etc Here s the thing none of us can know what s to come and religion won t tell us the truth To me, she explored and over shared her religion and didn t talk much about anything else This wasof a religious book then a cancer memoir In the end, was she still a televangelist and believed in the prosperity gospel I don t know Additionally, it was not in chronological order at all and overall very confusing Prior to reading this book, it was recommended to me by one of my good friends We were discussing how we love to believe all the cliches such as Everything happens for a reason Needless to say, I was very excited to read this, and by doing so, this has become my favorite book I read so far Before I start my review, I am going to start of with some of my favorites quotes from the book I wanted to make God to make me good and make me faithful,with just a few shining accolades along the way Prior to reading this book, it was recommended to me by one of my good friends We were discussing how we love to believe all the cliches such as Everything happens for a reason Needless to say, I was very excited to read this, and by doing so, this has become my favorite book I read so far Before I start my review, I am going to start of with some of my favorites quotes from the book I wanted to make God to make me good and make me faithful,with just a few shining accolades along the way Anything would do do if hardship were only detours on my long way life s journey I believed God would make a way I don t believe that any What would it mean for Christians to give up that little piece of the American Dream that says, You are limitless Everything is not possible The mighty Kingdom of God is not yet here What if rich did not have to mean wealthy, and whole did not have to mean healed What if being people of the the gospel meant that we are simply people with good news God is here We are loved It is enough When someone is drowning, the only thing worse than failing to throw them a life preserver is handing them a reason Kate Bowler believed in a lot of cliches and religious sayings,until she was diagnosed with cancer Now she tells her story of the prosperity gospel and how detrimental it is to people who believe in teaching that does not reflect the true nature of God I can relate to this book so much, not only the quotes that she used but I grew up with this religious nonsense I too was taught that you had to have just a little faith to be healed, command money to come down from heaven in order to receive a blessing That the reason why you were not healed is because you lacked faith Either that or you need to tithe your money in order to receive a breakthrough from God..WHAT Now that I think about it, that is a load of Bullshi.SHUT YOUR MOUTH I admire Bowler for sharing her story, it was eye opening, quirky and provocative.Highly recommend to anyone, it exceeded my expectations I was drawn to this book because I ve noticed that there seems to be a widespread belief that we are completely in control of our destinies Think of all the articles and books that tell us what to eat, how much exercise to get, what to invest our money in, etc, etc to live a long and healthy life Conversely, if you do experience financial difficulties or serious health problems, you must have done something wrong or something to deserve it I ve recently experienced some health issues, and man I was drawn to this book because I ve noticed that there seems to be a widespread belief that we are completely in control of our destinies Think of all the articles and books that tell us what to eat, how much exercise to get, what to invest our money in, etc, etc to live a long and healthy life Conversely, if you do experience financial difficulties or serious health problems, you must have done something wrong or something to deserve it I ve recently experienced some health issues, and many people have commented that they either can t believe that I got that or asked me what I did to get it or think all I need to do to get better is a positive attitude My thoughtif we re human and living on earth, shit is going to happen While there is some connection with my beliefs and Bowler s experience and premise for this book, I had never heard of the Christian creed of prosperity gospel Indeed her previous book Blessed A History of the American Prosperity Gospel was based on her belief in and her study of this phenomenon Basically it purports that if you re good enough and you believe enough God will bestow wonderful things upon you and, conversely, if you re not doing the right thing, God will punish you Well, she comes to the conclusion that shit happens, too, after her stage IV colon cancer diagnosis and experience with treatment although I imagine she doesn t describe it exactly that way While I didn t have the patience to readthan half this book about her experience and her revelations, I do feel that I m probably not the target audience and also see that it had resonance for many GR readers With all that said, the two appendices should be required reading for all people who have friends and family going through things 1 Absolutely Never Say This to People Experiencing Terrible Times you will likely cringe when you recognize things you ve said I did and you will know how unhelpful these things are if they ve been said to you when you are going through terrible times 2 Give This A Go, See How It Works Alternative things to say to and do for people going through terrible times Believe me, follow Bowler s advice These are all the things people who are suffering need to hear and receive A portion of this book was striking in its special way of describing mundane aspects of life and how meaningful they are when you ve got a terminal illness However, its narrative style was absolutely jarring and so hard to follow Also, I felt that a huge portion of the book was not relatable because of the author s privileged background and narrow sample of demographics I was hoping for a bitreflection or insight on the topic of prosperity gospel, but I felt all it had to offer were sni A portion of this book was striking in its special way of describing mundane aspects of life and how meaningful they are when you ve got a terminal illness However, its narrative style was absolutely jarring and so hard to follow Also, I felt that a huge portion of the book was not relatable because of the author s privileged background and narrow sample of demographics I was hoping for a bitreflection or insight on the topic of prosperity gospel, but I felt all it had to offer were snippy and oftentimes judgy comments not limited to prosperity gospel or limited to ideas in general Sanctimonious is a perfect word to describe the tone of book and the author s way of thinking Although I have a lot of sympathy for any kind of suffering, I also do not believe in the prosperity gospel, I am a mother to young children, and I am also very attached to my husband, the author left me unable to relate to her I feel sympathy, yes, deeply But in all other aspects, it was not an enjoyable read